i have realized that now for a period i have been getting memory gaps more often lately...
and since szitsofrenia (damn that word how do you spell it?) runs in the family, im not suprised really
things have rapidly getting worse now but il guess it will slow down soon
probably when i feel better to feel good heals everything
i wonder how many problems who runs in the family o.O ...i think its only my granma on my mothers side who it isnt anything with OwO (woho or what )

i am still waiting for that wig and granmas (on my dads side) present, aanndd...i ordered a tarot card deck -w- ~ fo shame ~ but its CLAMP's design 8D 130 sek is worth it ~
its sooo prettyyyy OAO and it was only 4 left...i hope it will come...or else i will slap those mailmans in da face ÒwÓ *slap*
i hoppppeee ~ i hooppppeee ~ i hooopppee~ i smiiillleee and smiiilllee and smiiillee ~

*finger in the ear and itshes*

i was on somekindaaa...meeting today...it started at 18:00 and ended at midnight, but since mom and dad shouldent be home tomorrow and had to go to bed earlier i had to leave before it ended it was like halloween special
i was there with , it was pretty fun =3 i won the costume contest yaay ~ horray for me, the gay guys liked dogs more then cats i was dressed as an werewolf, the one who was my hardest opponent to beat was a guy who was dressed as...well....i would call him uke cat...that skinny dude with sexy cat outfit
thought those gay guys would like him more O.Ó ... ah well they liked my zombie werewolf outfit obviously

and tomorrow its off to again! to have another halloween party
dunno if i can sleepover though >.< since mom and dad arent home someone have to "guard" the house (my dads granma who lives downstairs whos 89 years and almost cant walk >.< )

but it was really fun to be on that rfsl thing i forgot to take a pill against my problems...so i was about to throw up the first 30 minutes >< but i did it!! i beated it! bwahahahaaaaaa >=3

it was hella fun to tsee that drag queen and homosexuals different from hetrosexuals o.Ó
more then i thought actually...but it was kinda relaxing ... i often becomes a little nervous around "normal" people since i often look boyish...they look at me with discuss in their eyes...makes me kinda depressed...makes me wanna hide in my house, or only be with my friends...not go outside really...

but i guess i can be called a changer theres many in time who have came up with strange, awful, to free spirited and so on, things, that we actually follow these days, so if i continue to be the one i am, i maybe give someone courage to dress as that person feel is right

i mean...its 2009! soon 2010! we doesent live in caves anymore >.O people are way to close minded

and i am soooo tired for once... (zzZZzzZzzzZZZzzZzzZzz)

yaayy...funny title...

ah well ... I have oredered the wig to my grell cosplay, would take like 10 days for it to come, and iv ordered granmas x-mas present cause it would take 3-6 weeks for it to come (!!!holy fuck!!!) bought them on ebay love <3

im thinking of buying dreads...but they are SO expensive ;_; 110 sek for one bag...and you need at least 6 bags for the whole hair >,<;
i want big boots too buuut....they cost like 2000 sek...(fuck ;_; )
dollfie is still on my mind ^^ they cost like 2000 sek too DX and yes, they cost that much on ebay (holy fuck! something on ebay for 2000 sek! O_O )

i will buy something for my cousins and for x-mas...i have in mind what but i need to refil my paypal account
the wig and granmas present almost cost 500 sek O_O but the wig was at least free shipping
something for my friends too ^^ havent gave them x-mas presents for a long time ;_;
but now i hope i will find something really good (since i can easily buy on ebay i mean >w< kekeke ~ )

hm....not much to say...the winter is comming (freezing!)